keeping me sane

i need a hug. just like this.

top main sources of stress these days

1) keeping my mom company & helping her through her divorce

2) taking care of my 93 year old granny...love her, but man it can be difficult

3) figuring out what i really want to do with my year off before i go back for my master's

4) living up to my family's crazy expectations...I DON'T WANT TO BE A DOCTOR

5) not receiving much support for doing what i love...I DON'T WANT TO BE A NURSE

6) being surrounded by such money-oriented individuals...I DON'T WANT TO BE A DENTIST
7) trying my best to ignore my family's pressure/high standards. my uncle just told me i was fat the other day. wthhhh.

8) putting up with the question, "so why did you need your B.S. degree if all you want to do is fashion?"

COME ON PEOPLE. it's a business just like any other.

keeping me sane

1) my mister and his undying support

2) sewing & making things with my own two hands

3) the thought that I'll be back in school in a year researching what i love

4) styling shoots for photogs, models, and make-up artists who've been contacting me

5) the amazingness that is Rachel Zoe & Brad Goreski. looove her. love him. love the show.
6) my cousin who's been playing therapist. i'm so appreciative of him letting me vent

7) the silliness of Santino & Austin (two of my fave Project Runway personalities)

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thanks in advance!

mellow mello

Mellow/Mello Estoesta
March 1995 - June 2010

My sister and I have never been able to agree on the spelling
of our little brother's name. He passed away yesterday and
today he was buried in our backyard wearing a beanie
that I crocheted for him a few winters ago.

I'm going to miss him so much.